|Posted by: Merlins mum||Posts: 7 - Joined: Tue Sep 5th, 2017 03:58 pm|
I have written my or rather Merlins story on the general forum not realising there was a specific one for grief.
It is now one month since that dreadful day when I had to have my beautiful Merlin euthaniased. I cannot say it has got any easier despite the passage of time. I still cannot go through out the day without crying. I get up in the morning crying,I go bed crying before I sleep. I have to be strong with myself to handle work-I tell myself I can grieve on my own time and to be strong as my little Merlin was throughout his various health issues. It does not always work. I am a private person in a small village where almost everyone has a dog. I find myself avoiding people as I cannot speak about my loss just yet. It is only ten months since I lost my other dog to a brain tumour and it took a few months to able to speak to people about her. The house is to quiet and to tidy-I would welcome dog hair and hubbub that goes with having dogs. Sadly I am not likely to have another dog due to landlords rules regarding older people and pets I am not even sure I would want another dog to come into Merlin and Lolas places. I really miss them
First of all, I want to say how sorry I am you have lost two beloved pets. I have just read your other post and I can really feel the emotion coming through with every word you write. Merlin was very lucky to have an owner like you, and what a wonderful dog he sounds!
Everytime I have lost a pet, I am absolutely grief stricken. It hits us so hard, it's a tsunami of emotions: intense sadness, guilt, loneliness, shock. Life can be very difficult indeed. I know that I felt very alone in my grief until I discovered this site, and speaking with a pet bereavement counsellor at The Blue Cross.
Like you Minelda, I was absolutely distraught when I lost my precious Big Fella; I really thought I'd never come to terms with his death. The first 6 months were very emotional, and I cried most days, especially at night. It's now been over 2 and a half years, and I still cry from time to time and I think of my gorgeous boy constantly.
The grieving process takes its time; everyone is different. Be patient with yourself and let it run its course. There are good days and bad ones, but you will most definitely come through this difficult time with happy, wonderful memories of Merlin.
Please contact The Blue Cross who offer free pet bereavement support either on the phone or by email. I found it really helped me, especially as I didn't really have anyone in my life who understood what I was going through.
Take care and remember to keep in touch